The most amazing Year is over. And now?

2 weeks back and how I feel about it:

I thought it would be totally weird to be back home after all that time and that I will have some kind of depression and long lasting nostalgia or loneliness. But coming home doesn´t mean coming really home in that case. It is more like a version of home, an transformed kinda home, because one year changes a lot. My home itself actually changed, nobody told me about our new balcony! It was a weird feeling however when I came home.

This year, this adventure I always looked forward to was suddenly over. Done. Forever. And all my friends and the “new life” I built up is still in Canada while I´m in Germany again. I had the best time anyone could wish for. I met amazing people like Sarah, Izzy, Malcolm or Katie, and did amazing things like dancing around a giant fire or building schools in Guatemala! I am sad to leave that behind. I struggled sometimes with my housemasters and the rules, or some drama going on. Homesickness too. But I overcame it again and again and at the end I can just look back on all those positive things.

The last day was too short and stressful. We had the award ceremony where Vida and Jerad slayed all those prizes and after it I only had five minutes to say goodbye to everyone. I ran upstairs and got my bags, and hustled to the airbus which was already waiting. I waved my friends. And I cried, they cried too. So, after paying 150$ overweight at the airport and having a pretty short night, I was happy to arrive and see my family again. I had a welcome party with my closest friends at home and it was amazing to see them all again. Only the thought going back to my old school until the holidays actually start here, made me have some worries. I actually didn´t have the best relation to my old school. But to be honest, even though it was school and so many people I already kinda “knew”, it was pretty amazing 2 weeks. I met a lot of new people and actually became friends with some, as close as you can get in 2 weeks I mean. Do you know this character in a book or movie you just hate the entire time because they are just so sassy and mean, but at the end, the character gains sympathy and reveals themselves as actually being a good person, but then they die? This is how i feel about my old school now, because the last day is done and now I have holidays, and I will, such as Ridley, never attend this school again, cause I´m changing the school. It is weird, but nice to have a happy ending.

What I have to admit though is, that I actually feel a little lonely here. There are some days where I have completely nothing to do and I´m just hanging around and I am boring myself. I used to be around people all the time in Ridley and I really enjoyed it, it was a part of my life and there where always people to share anything with. But here it´s quiet and calm, just my parents and me in the house, and rainy summer days outside. I am not so sad about that I´m back, but I´m still missing the people, the environment, that there was always somebody, something to do or some events. I printed so many photos of this year and hung them up, so every day all my friends in Canada smile at me when I walk into my room. I just know that I will always stay in contact with them, cause they became so important for me in those 10 months.

So, how will it be in my new school after summer break? I already have like 2 people I know there, and it will be one grade below. I will have to make new friends, again, and yeah it´s always work, but if I can make friends on another continent in another language when I knew literally no one, I can do it everywhere. And I´m excited, and motivated to discover those new impressions. But of course, I will always keep Canada in my head, and all my friends and experiences, those crazy and funny and unbelievable things. And I hope that all the people keep thinking bout me next time they hear about Germans…I guess I was just the best example of my kind there :D

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